How How different for all of them if Izzy had been like the one standing in his kitchen? What would it have been like for him to have casual sisterly teasing and talks when one of their hearts had been broken? His Izzy had been there when he needed her, and he loved her because of who she was, but he wondered what it would have been like if she hadn't closed herself off. He never really knew why it had happened. Maybe Izzy had believed that to be strong she had to distance herself.
What did it say about their family that the reason why he realized that this Izzy wasn't the same as the one he grew up with was the fact that she'd hugged him? "We all did. I tried my best to make sure the three of them were happy, but I was a kid." It wasn't an excuse. Alec had tried and he'd always known he hadn't quite gotten through to his sister but there had been some secret hurting the Lightwoods that he hadn't known until after the divorce was announced.
Even if this wasn't the Izzy from home, he knew every version his sister enough to know she was getting too lost in thought. "We were raised different than you were but the important parts, the parts that make her - you - my sister are the same." Letting her dark hair curl wrap around his fingers, he gave her a smile meant to annoy her. "Yes, I can. I'm your big brother. It doesn't matter if you're not the Izzy I grew up with. Alecs will always be big brothers to Izzys." It would be strange to get used to the differences but Alec knew that he'd still love her.
"Valentine sent an army of demons into Idris. He meant to wipe out every Shadowhunter except Clary." And his son, but Alec couldn't call Sebastian a Shadowhunter after everything he'd done. His forgiveness could only go so far. Maybe when enough time had passed he could let go of the past. "The Downworlders agreed to fight with us and she created a rune so that we could fight as equals. It's safe for a Downworlder to wear the other half. I fought with Magnus." Despite the seriousness of the situation, he grinned, eyes bright with the memory. "I could feel his magic, Iz. I think I might have been able to cast a spell if Magnus had shown me how."
Yes, Alec did geek over magic even if most Shadowhunters thought of it as distasteful. He wondered if the other Alec was as interested in Magnus' magic. He hoped so. Magnus had been so pleased that Alec loved his magic and warlock marks instead of being afraid of them.
"Valentine gave Jace's mother and Jocelyn angel's blood while they were pregnant. Only a few people knew the truth. Jace and Clary didn't find out until a few months ago." He still wasn't sure how Jace felt about it. He'd teased his parabatai about being more angelic than him and told him it didn't change anything between them but Jace had still been coming to terms with everything before Alec had been brought to the islands. "I told him that the differences don't matter and they don't with you either. We'll figure this out, sis. Your Alec is different than me but that doesn't mean that I can't be like your brother in the ways that matter."
If Izzy wanted him to be in that role. She could say no and walk away, never talking to him again. "Unless you don't want to see me again. I'll leave you alone if that's what you want."
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What did it say about their family that the reason why he realized that this Izzy wasn't the same as the one he grew up with was the fact that she'd hugged him? "We all did. I tried my best to make sure the three of them were happy, but I was a kid." It wasn't an excuse. Alec had tried and he'd always known he hadn't quite gotten through to his sister but there had been some secret hurting the Lightwoods that he hadn't known until after the divorce was announced.
Even if this wasn't the Izzy from home, he knew every version his sister enough to know she was getting too lost in thought. "We were raised different than you were but the important parts, the parts that make her - you - my sister are the same." Letting her dark hair curl wrap around his fingers, he gave her a smile meant to annoy her. "Yes, I can. I'm your big brother. It doesn't matter if you're not the Izzy I grew up with. Alecs will always be big brothers to Izzys." It would be strange to get used to the differences but Alec knew that he'd still love her.
"Valentine sent an army of demons into Idris. He meant to wipe out every Shadowhunter except Clary." And his son, but Alec couldn't call Sebastian a Shadowhunter after everything he'd done. His forgiveness could only go so far. Maybe when enough time had passed he could let go of the past. "The Downworlders agreed to fight with us and she created a rune so that we could fight as equals. It's safe for a Downworlder to wear the other half. I fought with Magnus." Despite the seriousness of the situation, he grinned, eyes bright with the memory. "I could feel his magic, Iz. I think I might have been able to cast a spell if Magnus had shown me how."
Yes, Alec did geek over magic even if most Shadowhunters thought of it as distasteful. He wondered if the other Alec was as interested in Magnus' magic. He hoped so. Magnus had been so pleased that Alec loved his magic and warlock marks instead of being afraid of them.
"Valentine gave Jace's mother and Jocelyn angel's blood while they were pregnant. Only a few people knew the truth. Jace and Clary didn't find out until a few months ago." He still wasn't sure how Jace felt about it. He'd teased his parabatai about being more angelic than him and told him it didn't change anything between them but Jace had still been coming to terms with everything before Alec had been brought to the islands. "I told him that the differences don't matter and they don't with you either. We'll figure this out, sis. Your Alec is different than me but that doesn't mean that I can't be like your brother in the ways that matter."
If Izzy wanted him to be in that role. She could say no and walk away, never talking to him again. "Unless you don't want to see me again. I'll leave you alone if that's what you want."