"No." It was out of habit and years of not trusting anyone that made Sebastian respond without thinking about what he was being asked. He should be better about this now, but losing Jack had made him far less trusting of the world, even the Universe, than he had been before. If even the Universe was against him having anything good then why bother?

It was an argument he'd had with himself over and over again. Jack would want him to be happy. But how could he be happy without Jack?

He needed help.

"No, wait! I meant yes. I do." He looked up quickly, almost desperate to retract his previous answer and finally figure out the mess he'd found himself in. And then looked up a little higher because while he wasn't short, he was 5'9", the person he was speaking to was taller. And then he just stared for a moment. "I'm lost."